Wednesday, July 05, 2006
argh. i really really hate my class. i just don't know why. pms again. blah blah. even ahmah couldnt make me feel better. i really regret my decision sometimes that i didnt give myself a chance like at NJ or anywhere.
i just find our class so frustrating, annoying, i never had this feeling before, until now. well, i cant do anyting now. pout, sulk, frown, groan, nothing will actually make it better. i cant voice my opinions out because i will " hurt the feelings of people" so i shall voice my opinions here, because nobody reads my retarded blog.
i wanna get out of SBC. get out of MG, get out of 2t. there are people whom i dont like, people whom i just cant stand, people who are nice, caring and kind. ): mixed feelings >.< i want to scream, just scream my head off. but, what to do. cant do anything but ren.
i dont care if i hurt people's feelings, you may say that i am spiteful, mean or whatever you want to say. you dont care about me, i dont care about you. there's nothing i can do to control your tongue.
twotee feels so un-united compared to last year, today's lessons were all stoning, it just felt so quiet and dao. hardly anyone contributed, i just felt so sad today. ): urgh. venting out all my anger that i contained for this whole day, nobody should hear all my grievances since it's my own problem, i am so sorry ahma for flaring up at you today. sorry.
sigh, these just make me feel worse, i want to get out of my house and just scream for an hour and release all my frustrations. why cant i?!
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